I have post-polio syndrome. Recently, I have transitioned from using leg braces and a walker to being in my power chair full time. It was a hard transition, but with the love and devotion of my beloved Frank, as comfortable as it can be.
We don’t live in an accessible apartment. And although it is spacious enough, driving a chair around presents challenges. The nights are easiest, as I am alone in the living room without my braces on, and usually spend time writing emails to my loved ones.
Post-polio syndrome is a cluster of symptoms which show up 30 – 40 years after the initial diagnosis of polio and after a recovery is made. It includes increasing weakness, extraordinary fatigue, pain, and breathing and swallowing difficulties. I have all of the above.
Transitioning to my power chair meant I had to give up my networking group. It’s a fabulous group of dear friends who promote each other’s Etsy shops and items. It gave me a sense of purpose and enjoyment in my day. And I miss celebrating each other’s successes.
At first I was going to close my shop as well, as it’s difficult to get packages ready to ship now. But not wanting to give up everything that gives me joy, I have chosen to keep it open. I’ll be making more jewelry in March.
But I now have more time to write; maybe not the eloquent prose and poetry of the past, but more honest and straightforward blog posts about my life in the present day.
Tomorrow I am going to my doctor in Foxboro. A special van with a lift picks me up in my wheelchair and transports me to doctor appointments. This is another challenge, as good driving is required of me to stay on the lift and back up onto it when I arrive there or at home.
Recently, we went to my son and daughter-in-law’s baby shower. We visited their home for the first time and enjoyed the day. But I think it’s going to be the last time I can visit, as having to walk up and down the few steps to their breezeway proved to be almost too much for my weakened knees.
This is a post about my disability. The next time I write, it will be about the baby shower and my expected grandson. He’s due in April.
I just want to say there is life after living in a wheelchair. Rich, wonderful, inspirational life that seizes your heart and catches your breath. The people in my life are as loving as before, as helpful as they can be, and I get to laugh each and every day.
So, tonight while I am writing my emails and listening to my iPod, I will relish the quiet of the darkness and solitude which I find so comforting.
To all of you, may you have a wonderful day.